Million Dollar Mutton

2010-12-03T02:39:00.001+08:00

MY NEW BLOGGING SPACE

P.S: Do follow me if you guys are on it. Love you people.

the girl who never grew up,

2010-10-03T04:26:00.002+08:00

the girl who never grew up,
Million Dollar Mutton

2010-09-23T16:44:00.003+08:00

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-09-23T00:24:00.005+08:00

Keep's Fall and Pointer Women's Spring & Summer collection is out!

Pointer Women's Hesperus Charcoal Failaka Print

Keep's The Benten Organic Glenplaid Houndstooth

Pointer Women's KC Black & Blue

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-09-20T14:00:00.002+08:00

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-09-20T13:55:00.001+08:00

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-09-17T01:30:00.005+08:00

P.S: Tee hee. ♥

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-09-16T00:46:00.004+08:00

The greatest irony of love; loving the right person at the wrong time, having the wrong person when the time is right and finding out you love someone right after that person walks out of your life. And sometimes, you think you’re already over a person, but when you see them smile at you, you’ll suddenly realize that you’re just pretending to be over them just to ease the pain of knowing that they will never be yours again.

For some, they think that letting go is one way of expressing how much they love that person. Some are afraid to see the one they love being held by someone else. Most relationships tend to fail not because the absence of love, love is always present. It’s just that one was being loved too much and the other was being loved too little.

As we all know that the heart is the center of the body but it beats on the left. Maybe that’s the reason why the heart is not always right. Most often we fall in love with the person we think we love but to only discover that for them, we are just for passing time while the one who truly loves us remains either a friend or a stranger.

So here’s a piece of advice; let go when you’re hurting too much, give up when love isn’t enough, and move on when things are not like before. For sure there is someone out there who will love you even more.

- Nurul Amira Azman

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-09-15T15:22:00.003+08:00

To my friend, my companion and most of all my love..happy 3 months sayang! Love you!

- Summer, September 15th '2010, 11.06am

Third time's a charm baby. ♥ Love you too, nikkuh.

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-09-13T17:55:00.003+08:00

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-09-13T16:33:00.006+08:00

He never fails to keep the childhood burning alive. Always. ♥

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-09-13T16:31:00.004+08:00

P.S: Summer. ♥

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-09-13T16:25:00.005+08:00

To all o'those others. ♥

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-09-13T16:24:00.002+08:00

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-09-13T16:21:00.005+08:00

HAPPY RAYA '2010!

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-09-10T00:04:00.002+08:00

"People think a soul mate is a perfect fit, and that’s what everyone wants. But a true soulmate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that’s holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. A true soulmate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear you down your walls and smack you awake."

- Eat, Sleep, Pray by Elizabeth Gilbert

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-09-09T23:47:00.004+08:00

Dah lama tak main bunga api macam best pulak. Hahaha. Enjoy the festive month! ♥

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-09-08T02:21:00.003+08:00

On replay. ♥ It's amazing how one song can make you reminisce so many love-hate escapades.

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-09-07T22:31:00.005+08:00

Once upon a time, we used to play with teddies together. ♥

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-09-06T16:06:00.006+08:00

They don't know. They won't. They never will until a few years down the road, they'll finally learn we ain't playin'. Say so many things, yet none bothers to delve deep to fathom.

It ain't no predicament.

But it always happens when the eye meets the shocker. Yet, we're still cool, tight and shit. And you people? It's really sad you can't handle it.

And till forever comes, SUCK IT!

P.S: “If you find it hard to laugh at yourself, I would be happy to do it for you."

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-09-05T23:08:00.005+08:00

P.S: *sniggers* Heh.

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-09-05T22:53:00.005+08:00

St. James ♥

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-09-05T22:48:00.004+08:00

Heard it in Summer's car. ♥

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-09-02T01:54:00.002+08:00

I want a boy who would shove ice cream in my face, who would wrestle with me, who shows me off to his friends and family, who treats me with respect, who would call me at four in the morning just to tell me he can’t stop thinking about me, who sings to me even if he can’t. A boy who could break my heart, but would never ever dream of it.

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-09-01T06:18:00.000+08:00

I am currently blogging through my Blackberry right now. It's been a mad ass long time I've not been writing a proper update. But then again, who wants to even read so much. I'd prefer writing little, but in the end, my readers would have an impact.

NEXT.

Alright, enough of all the blabber. Let's get to some serious talk.

Well, it ain't for you, but if we're talking about crazy kicks, I'm all in.

I'm obsessed with 'em. I have more than 15 pairs, and right now, I'm waiting for a new ordered pair to add to my growing collection. Daddy's being super nice to design a shoe shrine in my room. Like, SERIOUSLY.

How lucky a bitch I can be, right?

I knowwwwwwwwww. And what's more, I am going to upload all of 'em kicks up here! Oh come on, spare this little mad girl some heart. She just wants to showcase her unending footwear collection.

But first!

Lemme get some sleep. I'll get 'em up in the afternoon. Love you guys. <3

the girl who never grew up,
Million Dollar Mutton

2010-08-31T21:56:00.007+08:00

Nike Air Yeezy (Glow In The Dark Soles)

I'm gettin' these sooner than y'kno. *winks* Benci betul, tahu tak bilang Summer. Sekarang dia pulak dah suruh aku orderkan dia punya. Abeh pre-orders for women's collection belum open.

BENCI!

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-08-29T16:45:00.002+08:00

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-08-25T17:41:00.005+08:00

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-08-25T17:35:00.003+08:00

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-08-25T16:37:00.003+08:00

I'm learning. And as I am, I need you to hold my hands and walk with me. I am vulnerable. Though I look tough, I still need you to kick a pebble out of my path, or shoo annoying dogs. Because I need you.

Damn much.

P.S: Things are different now, because of you. And I like that.

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-08-19T03:19:00.001+08:00

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-08-19T02:08:00.004+08:00

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-08-19T02:05:00.002+08:00

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-08-19T01:33:00.001+08:00

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-08-09T20:46:00.003+08:00

If I had won today and all those other championships, my life might be totally different, but I didn't win. It's not going to affect my life. I am upset inside, but I'm not going to run around and be like Dennis Rodman and head-butt an official.

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-08-04T19:53:00.002+08:00

SAO MAI HOTEL. ♥ We're all doing good here, people.

P.S: Will update sooner once the tiredness has gone.

the girl who never grew up,
Million Dollar Mutton

2010-07-31T02:35:00.001+08:00

I do not like this one bit. I'm very very upset with you right now.

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-07-28T09:32:00.000+08:00

Blogging through my Blackberry, currently.

Today's the first day of physiotherapist. Darn it. But luckily my therapist is very nice. Unlike some others whose face needed a good punch. I mean come on, you go to work like your face has just been plastered with cow dung or something.

If it affects you, you don't have to affect your colleagues.

Toopid. Anyway, on the upside, I've made an appointment for treatment, cut and wash with my favourite hairdresser, Sharon. Yes. That same woman who made me look human last year. *LAUGHS*

This time, maybe sonething sleek.

I don't know what hairstyle, but I'll have the jury behind me. And then right after that, back home. Summer's like a dragon, breathing down my neck every single day, telling me to stay home and rest.

How can he actually forbid me from any movement? It's like telling a hyperactive kid to not fidget or make a sound.

Not even a fart.

But even so, he's being such a dear to accompany me being at home just till I got better. Well, I guess it's about time I learn to sit still and appreciate still having my knees, rather than being physically disabled.

I really do believe I'll get better by the weekends.

I could feel it in my bones. And I trust my bones because I've drunk tons of milk and calcium. I want to go back to jumping and running around like a kid on a sugar rush. I missed that, though this has just been my second day.

I hate being indoors with nothing to do.

I hope Kelvin does some magic on me when I see him in awhile.

the girl who never grew up,
Million Dollar Mutton

2010-07-27T22:11:00.004+08:00

Officially HANDICAPPED.

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-07-27T11:13:00.000+08:00

[ Tuesday, 27 July 2010, @ 10.10am ]

Woman: Hello, Sports Council.

Me: Yes, can I make an appointment to see the Doctor URGENTLY today?

Woman: What's wrong?

Me: An old injury.

Woman: *clicks on mouse* I.C number please.
Me: 89*****H.

Woman: Are you limping?

Me: Yes I am.

Woman: Okay, you can come now.

*RUSHES TO TAKE A SHOWER*

It was less than 5 minutes of the conversation, and now I'm blogging through my Blackberry in the cab. All the best to me, I guess.

the girl who never grew up,
Million Dollar Mutton

2010-07-27T04:26:00.004+08:00

This is going crazy. I'm getting restless by the minute. I can't sleep or think properly.

This knee's killing me! Thank you so much honey for driving me back home and spending half the night eating home deliveries and watching a couple of DVDs with me. It eased the pain, abit.

I'm crashing Sports Council first thing tomorrow afternoon to get this busted knee treated as soon as possible before I leave for Vietnam next Monday. And then I'll get back home to do some gym and maybe if the knee behaves, I might do some serious skipping.

I can't be doing nothing lazing about.

ARGH! The replay of that unfortunate moment during night training scares the shit out of me. The pain was excrutiating, I thought I was going to die with my soul pulled out from my left knee.

I swear to God, I had images of amputated legs and the operating room, and wires and the nightmares of not being able to walk or run, or do anything human at that point of time. When I tried to get up on my two feet, but I fell again.

IT SCARES ME.

I thought I would never see light again. My eyes were spotty, and my legs were trembling. Just at that second, blood rushed to my brains and suddenly I felt so upset.

I was in fury.

I had to grit my teeth throughh the whole process of icing, and walking to the lockers to get showered, and limping. It hurts so bad, I need to get a numbing jab for it.

*covers face with hands*

I hate this. I hate this.

Got to get back in shape pretty soon. See you around.

P.S: I appreciate your company, Summer. I love you.

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-07-24T04:04:00.002+08:00

The Sorcerer's Apprentice was awesome with Summer.

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-07-24T03:49:00.002+08:00

I LOVE SHOPPING.

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-07-21T07:37:00.000+08:00

Hello.

Currently blogging from my trusted BB. It feels so good to be back, blogging. I don't know how long you guys have waited, but I don't really care. Now, where should I start? There's so many things I'd want to tell you.

Let's start with where I am now.

I'm actually on the train to Redhill for Gan Eng Seng Primary's morning class. I hate mornings. You asses would probably learnt why.

-_-"

I really cannot wait till Friday's over.

Now next point. Ahhh. Summer. What about him? Nothing much. Wait, actually there's a damn whole lot to tell. Good thing is, we've done doing one month together, and we're actually staying stronger each day.

Bless that little nigga.

*LAUGHS* life as seriously never been so blithesome and random since he came. I get to do loads of all the stuff I've been wanting to since my last. Summer's been a perfect asshole, and I loved him for that.

Because I'm an asshole too. A stubborn asshole.

Hahaha. I've never been to movies one time too many in a month, and now I got the opportunity to do so with someone. One month. Seems quite short for someone who's still nursing a deeply broken heart.

Bless that fella who's always there. Never fails to have my back 24/7 and one who is extremely affectionate with Mummy. Now them both make good match for a pact. Folks liked him a lot despite his abrupt presence in my outstanding life.

I actually ran out of words to explain my heart's talk. Finally someone who has an immaculately mature sense of thinking, one whom I can finally run wild and free with, with no boundaries. One whom I can scold "Idiot!" to and get a "Bodoh!" back.

Finally, someone whom I can spar with at any point of the day. Yes, this fone Usher-looking indian. HAHAHAHAHA. If he's proud to be one, I'm very proud to HAVE one.

*LAUGHS*

Its still too early to tell how far we'll go, and I know some bastards out there are plain annoying if they ever wished to get in the way. But truth be told, I have a bleeding lot of human armour in hiding, just waiting to prance at intruders.

Okay, does that sounded terrorist-like or something? Hehehe.

I haven't really explained how he managed to fall splat onto the ground that I walk upon, but it feels good at this point. Very. (It also feels good to pluck the hairs on his arms) *LAUGHS*

I hope this is final.

And Summer, if you're reading this, let's put our mission to work. See your ass around, nigga. Love you with all my guts.

The most knowledgable person who will hold me so tightly when I scold him during my mood swings and knows the best way to everthing. My partner-in-crime. My mad-ass adrenaline junkie who fits perfectly to my crazy nature.

I never got bored, because he, Summer, well Summer keeps me going on my feet and he never tires when he's out with me. But the only problem is, once he sleeps, I feel like yelling into his ears to wake him.

Bloody hell. -_-"

I really need to get an electric shocker alarm clock someday. Hmmm.

P.S: Miss you. Will miss you. Tsk. Faster come and see me laaarrrggghhh!

the girl who never grew up,
Million Dollar Mutton

2010-07-12T01:33:00.006+08:00

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-07-10T02:01:00.004+08:00

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-07-07T00:40:00.005+08:00

Coping well, when there's an Indian doctor who helps me with rehab every single day. *LAUGHS*

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-07-05T01:17:00.004+08:00

Verse 1
came to your wedding uninvited
walk to da church and sat down inside
i wanted to scream your name
let everybody see my pain
when you said i do i died
and it was time for you to kiss the bride
through tears i saw you lift her veil
you kissed her and my world turned pale
i thought i was apart of your life
but they pronounced you man and wife
saw the emotion in your eyes
and in da church i started to cry

Chorus
damn you
and your wedding bells
damn you
have me under your spell
damn you
you gonna burn in hell
and if its that wat you want
i guess you got wat you want boy

damn you
and your bedroom eyes
damn you
and your believable lies
damn you
you know your gonna fry
and if its that wat you want
i guess you got wat you want boy

Rip:
if you believe in karma then you know
what you do gonna come around to you
and the hurt that you dish today
isnt free you gatta pay

2nd Verse
so i got up and started running blindly
had to get that painful scene behind me
the wind howling in my ears
seem to be laughing at my river of tears
i didnt wait for you to walk my way
or stick around until she through the bouquet
i couldnt trust my self to just sit by
and not flood the church with the tears i cried
last night i was in your arms
you held me and kept me warm
can't help feeling left behind
as she walks off with what you said was mine!

Chorus
damn you
and your wedding bells
damn you
have me under your spell
damn you
you gonna burn in hell
and if its that wat you want
i guess you got wat you want boy

damn you
and your bedroom eyes
damn you
and your believable lies
damn you
you know your gonna fry
and if its that wat you want
i guess you got wat you want boy

Hook
you see that lame up thing a nah you that
hurt me yuh mad, you'll never do that
now me know for a fact say a nah true that
see it dey you beetray me, you lickle judas

Rip
if you believe in karma then you know
what you do gonna come around to you
and the hurt that you dish today
isnt free you gatta pay

Hook
father ma know you see him committ the autrocity
and vengence is yours all me need is a little reciprocity
nothing major, just equal pain
you know wah me a feel already father
mek him feel the same

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-07-04T12:01:00.004+08:00

Partners In Crime.

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-07-03T05:03:00.004+08:00

Screamo VS Rock.

"Mau keluar anak tekak nie jerit macam kena rogol dengan anj kili pai yay."

P.S: Now you have lost all yo' weapons to trap me. It's been proven. I love you.

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-07-02T12:03:00.000+08:00

"Buruk betul uh bila you merajuk, tahu tak? Merajuk behtu hilangkan diri, orang call tak angkat, SMS tak jawab. You bukan budak kecik lagi tau. You're 48 already, fo' God's sake! I thought you're matured enough."

"Sikit sikit merajuk. Tak semua orang can cater to you always, and I can't please a lot of people. Bikin I panic tau. You yang nak ikut, abeh when this thing happens, baru suruh you duduk luar (obviously I can't work if you're in close proximity) you ingat I halau you."

"Abeh dah merajuk gini, you expect people to pujuk you. I nak try to pujuk you, jual mahal. Tanak angkat telephone semua. You're different from me, you're old, and you can't do much of something happens to you outside. Kalau orang attack you ke, perampok datang ke, you nak buat aper? Kasi back kick?"

"Please lah. Jangan asek merajuk and take things to heart easily. Nak susahkan kepala hotak bikin ape, kan? Now get yo ass back here and stop all this merajok nonsense. Tak rock uh lu."

P.S: Blogged from Blackberry.

the girl who never grew up,
Million Dollar Mutton

2010-07-01T13:04:00.005+08:00

P.S: Here's to THAT person who always say "NAK TERJUNNNNNNNNN~!" *LAUGHS*

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-07-01T02:01:00.009+08:00

Presenting, CRAZY.

That is ♥.

God, where do I even begin. When the last time I thought boredom was just living, right now, the only time I get bored is when I'm deep in my subconscious sleep.

I sleepwalk, goddammit.

I talk in my sleep, and I wake up, startled because I found myself talking. I jolt awake from some of my sleeps, thinking I have nightmares when I usually have dreamless dormancy. I am deeply affected. And.....

I kinda like it.

I cannot believe I'd actually started to get fanatical about Twilight and it's annoying saga, and now I'm starting to find Eclipse ludicrously irresistable. I swore to myself I would never ever ever in my human living life watch anything vampiric.

Or so I thought.

Anyway, life's got me eating happy, and I'm finally back on my 'eating iron' regime at the gym and these muscle sores have never felt so good since the day I carried a 2.5kg dumbbell for bicep curls.

*LAUGHS* I tahu I kental.

Gotta get some sleep. I have a Vampire date tomorrow. *winks*

the girl who never grew up,
Million Dollar Mutton

2010-06-28T12:30:00.000+08:00

Summer & Snow ♥.

the girl who never grew up,
Million Dollar Mutton

2010-06-25T16:51:00.006+08:00

Would you look at these tiny superheroes. *LAUGHS* Pictures came out fresh from BBM.

Summer's being a nice little uncle to his nephews. Too adorable I feel like chunking them all in the oven. It's annoying when I can't get my hands on them. Ugh.

P.S: "Uncle Syafiq bully kitaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Topi besar sangaaaaaaaat."

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-06-25T15:39:00.000+08:00

You'll never guess where I am right now. Hahaha. The place where my creative juices flow like the Niagara Falls. The space where no one can enter when I'm inside, and ocassionally I can smell fart or hear piss trickling.

And usually hear plopping sounds.

*LAUGHS*

I'm blogging on my Blackberry in the house loo. Well, today's procedure might take a little longer because I ate till I got stupid yesterday with Twinny and the rest of the crazy makan kaki-s.

So literally, I am full of shit.

I just woke up about an hour ago, and I have yet to get my shower. Hmm. I'm waiting fo Summer to update me about meeting up today. *taps chin*

Oops. Oops. Gotta go.

Tummy's rumbling with all the goodies. My bowels need some love right now. Talk to you laters.

the girl who never grew up,
Million Dollar Mutton

2010-06-24T21:13:00.005+08:00

P.S: Irresistable you.

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-06-24T00:28:00.009+08:00

P.S: I'm not perfect, I'll annoy you, I'll piss you off, say stupid stuff and then take it back. But put that all aside, you'll never find a girl that cares and loves you more than me.

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-06-23T03:41:00.005+08:00

*points*

That person who looks different with every snap of the camera. The bugger who bullies me, physically and mentally. The one whom I can exchange showing middle fingers and mouthing expletives without getting hurt.

One whom calls me stupid and bodoh and 'CB' with so much love. *LAUGHS*

This is that arse who annoys me every single day, every minute, even when he's at work, and AT SLEEP. He who smells like Gucci, and "TAYONNNNNNNNNG-s" me till I get mad.

He looks like Usher. *rolls eyes*

I have a celebrity Boyfriend, now aye? *chuckles*

*points* That 22 year old temperamental driver who 'M-s' bloody drivers that gets in his way. The daredevil who never puts on his seatbelt, and the same one who's been there, chaffeuring me around like a Princess.

He.

*points*

That's my Summer.

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-06-22T13:53:00.005+08:00

P.S: Syafiq Hassan!! And it's always when you're about to sleep. -_-"

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-06-22T01:26:00.002+08:00

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-06-21T09:57:00.004+08:00

OMG.

After 3 days (or was it?) that I am separated from my BB due to some minor glitches, the LCD of my BB was damaged because Sassyfella's present accidentally dropped on it.

Summer came like an aimless teen titan to save the life of my Onyx Pearl White, so it could have a better future. Poor thing it's only 5 days old.

*wipes tears*

I was like a paranoid bastard that night when my screen went totally pitch white blank. I thought if it died on me, I would have died together with it, too. *exaggerates* I felt like I have lost a limb or something.

That bad.

Now that Summer went all Mister Magician on me, my BB now is in perfect condition. Thank you Hun. *huggyhug* BUT YOU'RE STILL IRRITATING BECAUSE YOU WOULDN'T LET ME PAY FOR THE DAMAGE THAT I DID.

You're so annoying. (Don't be hero, can?)

Off for breakfast with the latter and then catch a flick in the theaters before making my way for gym. It's back to addiction, baby.

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-06-20T22:42:00.005+08:00

P.S: Summer. ♥

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-06-18T02:17:00.004+08:00

To Summer,

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-06-16T12:24:00.004+08:00

15 June 2010.

♥

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-06-15T01:17:00.006+08:00

-_____________________-"

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-06-14T14:31:00.004+08:00

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-06-14T13:36:00.002+08:00

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-06-14T13:20:00.005+08:00

♥♥♥

New love. New life. New Blackberry Bold 9700 Onyx in Pearl White. Sweet stuff.

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-06-11T01:52:00.005+08:00

Don't cry baby. I understand how you feel. He don't deserve your tears. No one deserves a single tear unless it's a tear of happiness. Go fuck care what he has to say. Because you've make a decision to move on. You didn't lose anything. He did, so serve him right. You deserve a better man. Please don't cry. Just think of moving on.

But think again, he's at a lost. even if you think of all the bad memories, what do you get? Heartache. Is that worth for you? Not at all, baby. Let him beg you. Let him feel the pain and suffer for breaking up with you. This is not the first time, Bit. He promised you to take great care last time, and look at you now,what do you get? Heartache. Not worth, seriously baby.

Funny. If he believed you from the start, why did he ask for breakup? Why didn't he make some clarification before assuming? All these are bullshit. Promises after promises because he desperately wants you back. He promised the same thing after S******'s issues, didn't he? Guys. Semua sama aje.

Baby thanks for being there when I need to talk. We'll have our yoghurt date one day. And I miss you. You're always with school and work. Benci seribu kali benci. Tapi aku sayang kau maksimum.

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-06-09T18:57:00.003+08:00

I want to find a guy who calls me beautiful instead of hot, who calls me back when I hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to my heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch me sleep... I'm waiting for the boy who kisses my forehead, who wants to show me off to the world when I am in sweats, who holds my hand in front of his friends, who thinks I'm just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding me of how much he cares and how lucky his is to have me.... The one who turns to his friends and says, 'That's her.' ♥

P.S: And I think, I might just have found him.

the girl who never grew up,
Million Dollar Mutton

2010-06-08T22:30:00.004+08:00

When my lips are sealed shut, and my mouth can't speak. The only way of expressing it. The perfect way.

Oh my feeking God. It was like, a beautiful nightmare. Okay, maybe that was abit redundant, because what I am going through ain't how I just explained. It's well, different.

I wish there were words to describe it.

But I think the Thesaurus and my Macmillan Oxford have seen better days when I ripped certain pages out of them for meanings but unlike now, not even one darn page can express me entirely.

Oh dear.

Cat just got my tongue. Cat. Tongue. Hmmmmmmmm. *rubs chin* HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Pardon me, I was too caught up with my emotions, right now. I'm sorry.

I want to take my damn sweet time with this. No rush. With nobody hurrying me. Just me, "my cat" (HAHAHAHAHAHAHA), and just time. No alarms.

This is waaaaaayyyyyyy nicer than Magnum Gold. *shows teeth, grinning*

Sigh.

Guess I'm back. *pumps fist in air* Let's see where I'm heading to now.

P.S: SALAH PARKING, NAMPAK!!! *cheeky grin*

the girl who never grew up,
Million Dollar Mutton

2010-06-08T13:22:00.004+08:00

Me: Takpe dalam hidup nie kena perasan. Saya faham, kadang-kadang awak terlalu mengikutkan emosi.

Him: Emosi itu penting. Itu menunjuk bahawa seseorang itu punya sifat kemanusiaan kerana menpunyai perasaan.

*LAUGHS*

P.S: You're my daily drug.

the girl who never grew up,
Million Dollar Mutton

2010-06-08T01:13:00.003+08:00

Y.O.U. ♥

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways. MY ASS. Whoever created that, anyway?

I am smiling as I'm typing this. I am crazy. So I have been told. I was smiling when I was eating my spaghetti. And then I laughed. I chuckled to myself when I shower. What the hell.

*slaps forehead*

Something happened last morning. Something............*smiling*

WHY AM I SMILING!?

Shit. Hello!

I am mad. Seriously. *rolls eyes* Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I think I want to go to bed now. No wait. I gotta go to bed now. Alice is waiting for me in Lala Land because Wonderland ain't that interesting a place no more.

Whatthehell.

BYE.

the girl who never grew up,
Million Dollar Mutton

2010-06-06T23:40:00.003+08:00

OMG.

This is crazy. Seriously. *covers face*

I get nervous from time to time. I'm swept off my feet one time too many. I melt like how Magnum Gold does when it touches the buds on my smooth tongue. Shit. This is crazy. Look at what I'm talking about.

I keep our day-long texts, read them and find myself laughing. I read back our Messenger history, and.........God knows what happens when my mind whirs madly.

This is crazy. Shit-ass crazy.

P.S: Fix me.

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-05-30T15:11:00.004+08:00

Tsk.

Misinterpretation would sometimes lead to death, separation & fights. But in my case...

I LOST MY DIGNITY.

It saddens me to know that I was a victim of slanderous remarks. Now I have lost something so precious. But, it's all gone now.

P.S: We use to mess around, laugh and play, fuss and fight, I guess its too late, I'm dancing this dance alone, this chapters done, the story goes on.

the girl who never grew up,
Million Dollar Mutton

2010-05-28T13:31:00.003+08:00

finally ur true colours r out...ur such a skanky ass hoe n u don't deserve him.he's wayyyyy to good for u...Dont go blaming ppl especially him for the shit u have done..nobody forced u to do all those shit.r u brain dead or wat...Grow the f#$% up n take responsibilities.Mother F#$%^&* bitch...Aaaarggghhhhh im just so boody pissed now..

- C.I

ps; screw you bitch for hurting him. screw you. screww youu damn it!~ he deserve wayyyyy better than a skank like ya. damn you to heck~ FO.

- A.B

"Dear God, the only thing I ask of you, is to hold him when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away~."

the girl who never grew up,
Million Dollar Mutton

2010-05-27T14:58:00.002+08:00

11 missed calls. Please don't do this to yourself. You deserve so much better.

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-05-13T14:10:00.002+08:00

Lying in the gym right now, blogging from my Love, BlackBerry. It's frealing raining out, and like any other rainy Tuesdays, uhm....I'm kinda like too lazy to do anything productive.

Jepun Degil's lying beside me, eating her Chewy Bar. And me....didn't I just say I was blogging? That's why I'm typing furiously here. Hmm.

Things are crazy lately.

Certain things have popped up, and my "emotion" is really getting the best of me. I had to seek for early nights, and try to do something else which gets my mind off of it. Which is bloody hard because I hope an opportunity surfaces to suppress this "emotion". *LAUGHS*

Twinny should know best.

Tata Young's playing on the speakers now. I feel like dancing in a weird move. I don't know. I told you it's kinda crazy these few days. Diet's killing me. Seriously. I am deprived of all the goodies in the world. Yet....

I feel wonderful the same.

I'm starting gym in an hour's time with this skinny-ass girl beside me. Gentle Giant should be coming down to join us, like he always....wait no. Like he SHOULD everytime. Twinny said he's got "barang baik" to share.

Hmmmmmmm. *taps chin*

I think good things always come for those who wait, aye? MY ASS. Good things should always be shared as soon as possible! You hear me, Twinny!?

Alright. Pardon me for neglecting this space. Really, I do. I'm always busy on MSN and FB. I need to return to my blogging routine like always. Hmm. I'm getting my rest for abit before I start off with gym later.

Be good.

the girl who never grew up,
Million Dollar Mutton

2010-04-28T17:33:00.002+08:00

the girl who never grew up,

Million Dollar Mutton

2010-04-24T01:57:00.004+08:00

Freaky guy killed this shit! My breath was taken away by his lips.

the girl who never grew up,
Million Dollar Mutton

2010-04-22T12:46:00.002+08:00

Currently, I'm blogging from my precious Blackberry. Waiting for Fishball to happily arrive, (when she's freaking late). Oh yes, we're jogging together. Its been two days already, and I can feel the satisfaction.

Not forgetting seeing all the sweat dripping in mad puddles. But of course, that only happens when I'm using the magic jacket.

Sigh.

Diet's already included, so my mood's badly swinging, and just three days already, I've throwed my temper at 4 people. Including Mummy. I haven't talked to everyone in the house for......two days?

I don't care. As long as the maid's there to cook something, I'm happy. But, its not as if I can eat so much, right?

I feel like wanting to go fly a kite. Alone. Or maybe sit in town and watch funny people walking. Or lying under my dining table and count to 100 slowly. Trust me, I feel like doing something which doesn't bother people.

I think something's wrong with me.

I mean, there's always something wrong with me. I'm just like that. And yesterday, I saw an unknown man, walking slowly. Stranded in his own thoughts, with deep hurt and sorrow in his eyes. I could almost feel him.

Not literally TOUCH him, idiots.

Like, feel what he's going through. And I cried in the bus home. I don't know why on earth I am crying for a fat-looking bogus, but I feel that guilt looking at that man. I feel hurt. And I thought it could be because I'm having my periods.

I feel funny. All the time.

I feel so funny, sometimes I laugh at myself. I don't know. I need Centrum, I think. I'm losing a lot of vitamins already, and it's messing my brain already.

the girl who never grew up,
Million Dollar Mutton

2010-04-17T15:26:00.002+08:00

HELP.

; calling fo' hot owners of Lamborghinis & Ferraris who's willing to rent
out their mean machines fo' half a day (fo' media purposes), please leave me a
message and I'll get back to you as soon as possible.⁠

the girl who never grew up,
Million Dollar Mutton

2010-04-15T01:48:00.003+08:00

Let's just say, I've been busy, hanging with my butt.

Things have gone on a major rollercoaster lately. No, no. Nothing about school, really. It's just that, sometimes I feel the heart pulsing like it's about to burst. It must have been the Pre-Menstrual Syndrome.

Or, Perangai Macam Sial. *LAUGHS*

Why is this happening to me? Is this going to be forever? *slumps over chair* I need Twinny. I need Iced Chocolate. I need Grinch. And I need all the love I can get.

I need a hangover.

the girl who never grew up,
Million Dollar Mutton

2010-04-09T13:43:00.003+08:00

This blog, is currently NOT DEAD.

I have been busy with life (socially), and physically I need thorough adjustments after days of non-stop gym. Body's getting............manly?

*LAUGHS*

I have 4 kilogrammes to lose for any other competition. For now, let's just say I'm an inch close to being overweight. Yes, overweight.

Though I don't look like I am, (partly because my body knows how to disguise itself properly) but...but...but.... *sighs*

Off season's always great. *SMILES*

Alright, it's Friday baby, let's go get mean. enjoy the weekends suckaz.

the girl who never grew up,
Million Dollar Mutton

2010-04-03T13:12:00.004+08:00

; what is wrong with this kid?

the girl who never grew up,
Million Dollar Mutton

2010-04-01T13:12:00.002+08:00

; SEEKOR ANTU.

Bestnyaaaaa cerita ini.

the girl who never grew up,
Million Dollar Mutton

2010-03-29T23:51:00.003+08:00

A: A'aa eh. Aku pun satu. Aku pakai bikini. Standard. Aku nak tan kan kaki. Haha!

B: Kau dah kenapa siak. Pakai bikini abeh tan kaki. Terkentut aku baca reply kau ketawa ketawa. Hahaha. Tan kaki. Aku tak pernah dengar orang nak tan kaki.

-______________________-"

the girl who never grew up,
Million Dollar Mutton

2010-03-28T15:12:00.000+08:00

How much does a beach wedding cost?

I need help planning.

the girl who never grew up,
Million Dollar Mutton

2010-03-28T14:48:00.003+08:00

Bad, bad hangover.

the girl who never grew up,
Million Dollar Mutton

2010-03-27T11:33:00.005+08:00

Today's THE DAY.

the girl who never grew up,
Million Dollar Mutton

2010-03-26T12:00:00.004+08:00

♥♥♥.
I suka ini wall post. Suka sangat.

the girl who never grew up,
Million Dollar Mutton

2010-03-25T01:42:00.002+08:00

Manicure, DONE. Pedicure DONE. Facial, DONE. Shaving, DONE.

Now, dollops of body moisturizer will be taken advantage tonight! Happy Birthday to me. & Twinny of course. Heh.

P.S: You should see my inbox. *faints* Seems never-ending.

the girl who never grew up,
Million Dollar Mutton

2010-03-23T12:10:00.004+08:00

Alright, alright. It's exactly 3 more days and then I'm officially 21.♥

Thanks to Meera D for the idea of an all-girls treat just for me, and now it's all planned out perfectly. Just a few more adjustments, and a Plan B. And it's all good to go.

Balloons, checked. Dress, checked. Food, checked. Drinks, checked. Party gifts........hmmm. I can hear my mind whirring right about now. Lord, I'm getting so excited myself.

Dear God, thank you for making me live up to this day, seeing me grow from yet
but a small peanut sized foetus till I'm full blown (blown!? Grown, I
meant). Please do me a favour and let the weather be nice to me on my
birthday celebration. I love you. Oh, and you're invited too.

I'm getting a few things done this week before the weekends. So I'm pretty busy. Text me, okays? ♥ you.

the girl who never grew up,
Million Dollar Mutton

2010-03-21T12:34:00.005+08:00

Sorry for the lack of updates since I came back.

Anyway, I missed my Meeraa D. My eating, playing, peeing, bitching, sleeping and showering partner. Showering. Ohh, I missed that part.

*LAUGHS*

In case you people start to query about that statement, yes. We did shower together in that kampung house in Jalan Pengangkutan. Morning and night.

We even scrubbed armpits.

Not each other's. -______-"

God, I missed being with the mad-ass team. Luckily there's weekends to follow. Can't wait for Fridays. And to start off next week, I have an exam tomorrow. Yay.

Im off now. Put on your best behaviour.

the girl who never grew up,
Million Dollar Mutton

2010-03-18T13:40:00.003+08:00

Be back, tonight.♥

the girl who never grew up,
Million Dollar Mutton

2010-03-15T03:21:00.000+08:00

I wanna fuck Megan Fox. Can
I?

Me too. Can we?

the girl who never grew up,
Million Dollar Mutton

2010-03-15T01:40:00.004+08:00

Yeah, righttttt. -_____-"

It's 1.43am right now, and I'm leaving at 7am later on, and I've yet to pack shit in my bagpack. It's not like there's much packing to do, but really, there's so many things I'd rather do than to be packing.

Packing.

As if I'm the one competing. Oh, how I wish I was. Too bad, I'm a tad bit older. Stupid age limit rules. Na-bei.

Alright, apparently I'm leaving later this morning for Johore with the kids for their eenie miney tournament. Will be back probably Friday morning.

I think.

Argh.

As much as I hate packing, I still got to do it. I mean, who the hell's going to do it for me, right? *rolls eyes* Backpack somemore. Mau patah pinggang aku ni.

Okay, I'm gone soon. So you titties and dickies be good when I'm away. Eat well and yeah, don't forget to shave. I love you.♥

the girl who never grew up,
Million Dollar Mutton

2010-03-11T23:00:00.004+08:00

How long has it been eversince I did a decent post? Long enough? Well actually I love doing short entries, now that I'm getting pretty busy with stuff lately.

I know the word 'stuff' is pretty unconvincing, but it beats you people coming down to this little space of mine having to read a long note. And it's even worse to have you guys reading this even if it's meaningless.

What is wrong with you people?

*LAUGHS*

Currently I'm doing pretty much okay. It's been nearly 3 months after Sea Games that I have been hitting the gym with Gentle Giant, tightening, toning, firming and whatever you called it.

Controlling my eeating habits now, which is surprising.

Yet I still have these sinful indulgence once in a while. Chocolates are the best culprits to put my fingers on. They have been doing me justice, but they'll go manic crazy messing with my brain.

No wonder I get high too much these days. *happy sigh*

Chocolates are one of the best things man has ever created since the word "Fuck". Like it, it's such a beautiful invention made for human use.

It helps you express things more flamboyantly. People understand you better that way. Ain't it not? I don't exactly know how to explain to you how chocolates are similar to the word 'Fuck" but yeah.

I bet you already knew.

Plus, I'm already high right now I don't bother explaining my 2 cents worth of information, when I don't even know if half of the information can actually be absorbed into your brains at all.

Alright.

So much for a long one today. Still I hate long posts now. I wonder how you people can read so much.

the girl who never grew up,
Million Dollar Mutton

2010-03-11T00:33:00.004+08:00

Kau Peh Pasal Ah.

the girl who never grew up,
Million Dollar Mutton